Lately, my mornings have been pretty different.
Ya'll, my boys have always been late sleepers, for kids anyway. On a typical morning, they don't wake up until around 9:00, and I don't usually get up until about fifteen minutes before they do. I've never been a really late sleeper, but I am also sort of a night owl, so this has worked really well for me for a while. But I have had no time for myself and no time for prayer and journaling and no time for anything that I need so that I can get my day started off right, and it's something I have known I needed to change. Mornings were stressful with our "schedule" if we're honest.
And then, about two weeks ago, I randomly started waking up at 6:00 or 6:30, every morning, with no alarm or kids waking me up. At first, I hated it and probably complained too much. I would lay in bed for a while, trying to get back to sleep, and I never could, so I eventually gave in to what was apparently meant to be my new morning routine. Now, I get up as soon as I wake up, have coffee, pray a lot, read a little, journal, and schedule. It has been life-giving.
I have been getting more accomplished each day, and I have still had plenty of time to play with my boys and love on them. I am motivated and happy. The washing machine humming makes me smile and the smell of lemon verbena cleaner in my kitchen is the perfect back drop to the sound of the boys playing in the living room. Every photo I take looks a little better than the one before it. Dinner is ready on time, and everyone goes to bed with a smile on their face. I am finding ways every day to be creative. We have had play dates with friends often, and have enjoyed so many simple days. Things feel right, free, and crazy in the best of ways.
I am stepping outside of my comfort zone. I'm blogging a lot about things that are raw and real and on my heart. Things that are hard, but so important. I am parenting my boys with more confidence and being better about being unapologetically me. I am being intentional in my relationship with my husband, making sure I get to talk to him every day. I am starting a small group at church where I will have women in my home every week, to encourage them and be encouraged by them. I am worrying less and loving more.
My early mornings have given me freedom and made me fearless.
My Lord has set me free by waking me up, I am sure of it. I have been really stuck on Galatians 5:1 for a while now, but I feel like I am just now beginning to understand it, thanks to these early mornings. I needed that early morning alone time every day so that I could thrive more in all the areas of my life!
I have learned a lot in the quiet, still, golden sunlit hours on my couch or at my kitchen table. I can be fearless in God and with His help...I can do anything that He puts me up to. Anything.
And this whole "mom" thing is exactly the job He has given me to do...the big job, the most important one. Yes, we still have to work hard, and we are going to mess up, but luckily we have God's grace to cover us. I know I already wrote about this a little bit before, but just to reiterate...
...we cannot fail if HE has our back.
I'm praying for ya'll this week!