He's still just a baby. We have another baby on the way, but this big brother is still a baby. He still wants to be held and snuggled and loved on. He needs his momma or daddy so he can fall asleep at night. We still change his diapers and his clothes and sometimes he needs us to help him eat. He talks a lot now, sentences even, and is constantly saying "I want you!" or "pick me up!" I really thought he would be more independent by now. And in some ways he is! He spends a lot of time playing independently, has started using the potty occasionally, and likes to walk when we go places. But then, for days, he will just want to be held, loved, and snuggled.
If I am being honest, it gets frustrating. I think about how this is going to work when Jake is born and I think about how I cannot hold him all day every day. He's heavy, so holding him a lot makes my arms tire. These thoughts were going through my mind a few days ago, but he held my hand, told me to come with him, and walked me to where our ring sling was hanging next to the door. He placed my hand on it and asked, "Ups? Please?" Those grumbling thoughts dissipate. Of course, baby boy.
Baby wearing changes everything. With the right carrier I can still wear my almost two year old even with my growing belly, and do so comfortably. I can fulfill his needs to be close to me while also cleaning the house, fixing lunch, working on my computer, or whatever else needs to be done at that moment.
Yes, he will have to share me (and the sling) with the new baby in a few months, but for now, he is the baby. I want to cherish the time I have with him as my littlest, hold him close to me as often as he will let me while he still wants me to, and understand that sometimes he just needs his momma, no matter how big he is. I know these moments are fleeting, and in a few months he may not want me to hold him at all anymore. These moments are less and less, and I am so thankful that our sling lets me hold this sweet baby of mine a little longer.
The sling I use, almost every day, is a Sakura Bloom double layer linen sling. It is actually a discontinued colorway, but you can find a similar one here.